Today I completed another day of outpatient therapy. I learned that periods of hypomanic symptoms can in fact go on for extended periods of time (over a year) this is something I have wondered since there have been extended periods of time in which I was acting out but doing so under the radar of those closest to me.
I wish I could go back in time and get my diagnosis much earlier in my life so perhaps I wouldn’t have hurt my family as badly as I have. Even after the discovery of everything I did I continued to act in ways that were detrimental to the healing and recovery and restoration of my family. I’ve got no one else to blame other than myself but at least now this condition sheds a lot of light on the situation.
I can’t change the things in the past but armed with my ever growing knowledge and the proper medical care and medication I truly believe that I am on the right path.
I can’t say for sure if it is too late for our marriage to survive at this point in time , I know that I want it to with all my heart. I do know that I still must get better for myself and my family regardless.